And today marks the really final ending of poly life. 3 years.
3 years has passed and many events took place.
From new classmates, to best friends, to projects, to Cruise Trip, to OIP in Suzhou, to Internship at Sanya Bay to FYP and fcuked up projects, we all pulled through.
I’ve made some really good friends these years. And I also lost some during the years, as well as after the years. These 3 years to think back, it seems like yesterday just happened.
From the day I stepped into the school as a nerdy black spects don’t know how to dress myself up and ugly hairstyle boy to who I am now.
It brings back good memories of my entire 3 years life.
Just wanna be very thankful to the lecturers, my classmates, those that supported to make ourselves stronger, and those that brought me down to make me stronger. I’m all and all thankful.
The only upset part was prolly not seeing you at the graduation ceremony. I thought you would come. When someone asked me “Where is _?” I was kinda dumbfounded, reality checking that we haven’t talk since the start of the year.
That you have also become stronger in your way. sometimes wishing that time would turn back, and you could have gone for the OIP with us, you could have gone internship with me, and everything stays as happy as it is till now. This prolly would be the most regretful thing I take home from the 3 years of poly life. Ending it without my best best besties.
I also wanna thank Jojo and the rest of the people whom I knew better from the OIP for everything. For every fun, joy, laughter that we shared, all these are still deeply remembered.
And I also wanna thank Weesuan and Shanice, my internship company for the wonderful time that you all didn’t leave me to die in my room when I was hungry. For the nonsense you guys can accept from me. 6 months weren’t that easy, and we managed to, together completed.
there are still lots of emotions going on in my head.
well, army’s coming along the way in two weeks. my last thing is, I just can’t wait to leave my work place, because I think I’m really tired.
and thank you B, for coming down early in the morning. Ilyvvvvvm. (:
How time flies. In less than a month, I would be on another island, training to be a man. Time would be too little for civilisation which I feel it’s a good thing?
I have been pretty positive looking forward to NS.
well, it’s sooner or later. And I just can’t wait to get in. So tired of working and meddling with things happening outside.
At least in Tekong, they would help me save money.
3 meals a day provided. Training provided. Hair cut provided. Accommodation provided. Isn’t all these things good to look forward to? hahaha.
Some may say I’m trying to self-console, but truth is I really can’t wait to go in.
8th June, I await you. (;
I received something on my inbox today on facebook.
It strikes me pretty badly, I almost cried.
The message got me lost track of how fast time has passed.
I do miss you, friend. And like you, I do care.
for the both of you.
Today was nevertheless one of those good O days.
First, I was awaken by a shocking call from my manager today. Which she told me that I’m gonna sit in and present on the sales for PS tomorrow. And I was like dafuq? It was my off day, but well work is work. I changed my plans to go down to school to collect my abacus cert, and went to the outlet to get my things done.
It’s my first time attending the meeting, and I’m pretty much nervous about what to say. Thinking what if I say the wrong things, or say things that bored people out. Ah fcuk it, I would be able to come out with something somehow.
Well, Now i’m pretty much prepared, because I did some sales analysis, (crossing fingers) that it would be correct. Gonna meet my manager at 7am later on. I’m pretty happy for the opportunity actually, as much as it sucks to wake up so early just for a damn meeting that nobody is interested? Right. Lol
Then, Z came to fetch me for dinner and movie. Caught “This Means War” which was really hilarious. The down side would prolly be that it has too little action scenes in it. Most of it revolves around the woman. Oh well.
Gonna catch Hunger Games and Wrath of the Titans next. Hehehe.
My focus now would prolly be work. enjoy my civilisation. and make everything the best out of it. Most importantly, being happy.
after a few weeks of working there,
finally, we’re seeing results. I don’t deny the fact that I’m a result-based person. And am an impatient person to see results. As i get tired by the day, with working OTs, and OTs but not paid because I’m on a position that I won’t be, the satisfaction only comes from my colleagues’ efficiency and productivity.
My boss texted me that day, and said “sometimes, I don’t like your working attitude”
& I was like dafuq? I’ve put in alot of effort in helping, in giving everything. But my attitude. And then it strikes upon me, that sentence. People may just not like my attitude, but that’s how I live it.
Yeah, I admit, I tend to give the heck-care attitude, but it’s not that I don’t care, it’s.. it’s.. I don’t even know how to explain that inner thoughts.
well, now that these waves of torture are getting less stronger, I’m feeling happier at work. And I’m really looking forward to the bangkok trip I’m having with my secondary school friends. I really need a getaway from this country, this city.
my sis asked me the same question almost everyday: “your best friend and you haven’t okay?” I was not surprised she asked, but I didn’t give her the answer.
In my mind, I kept thinking. Every single day, just reading her posts and ensure that she’s good, and I would be happy enough for her.
I do cry at times, when I thought to myself that we didn’t get to enjoy every single happiness together like how we used to. How we may call each other in the middle of the night, just to talk nonsense over the phone and have a good laugh. How we meet up for a short dinner/lunch just to catch up with each other.
I was silly, stupid, and I deserve this now. So nobody in this world should or can blame her. It was me from the beginning.
Now life looks dull, and I’m just waiting for my call-up. Get lock up at a foreign island, and be the nation’s slave. Something which I am looking forward to. Discipline.
I know from the start, even now an apology wouldn’t worth much, coming from me.
what’s lost is lost. It’s not because how easy I can get over a person, a best friend. If it’s that easy, I wouldn’t be even tumblr-ing probably.
I said it once, and I say it again, that my best friend would be happier without me. I’ve let her down, and I don’t want to disappoint her a second time. Of course, neither would she be giving a second chance for me to disappoint her again.
I know the answer is Never.
I’m sorry, but I don’t seek for your forgiveness. Just to let you know that I am apologetic, not for the sake of it. Because I once cherish how much we had.
You know what. I can’t wait for May to come. Get out of this fcuking stressful city, and go bangkok with my secondary school girlfriends. Esther, gladys and yongxin, I’m pretty sure we will have lots of fun time doing shopping and bitching, and photo taking and eating. Let’s get fat, slumpy, and spend.
May, come faster.
I used to think back how 2012 started off really sucky.
I lost a best friend. A really close one. In fact, I lost two best friends those who were the closest to me. But now true enough, I’m too ashamed to even get back to them. And i guess neither they would want me back.
and then i told myself, Life goes on.
Sometimes when you passed by those places where your best friends hung out with you, it brings back those good memories that we had. However, one wrong big mistake destroyed these good memories. I did regret.
and then i told myself, Life goes on.
2012, my 21st. I spent it without these best friends once again. I thought I was happy, indeed I was happy. But I was not most happy because I didn’t have them in my party. Who knew that we were those animals partying together without fail, asking each other to go out, and it became like this.
and then i told myself, Life goes on.
the only thing now I probably regret was not making up to it.
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